Blogging Slumps, All The Cool Kids Are Doing It

I’ve been conspicuously absent lately and you know what, I don’t care. I’m so tired of feeling guilty about things that I just didn’t want to do. I never want blogging to feel like a chore or an assignment – I’m almost twenty-five dammit and it’s high time that I start enjoying my spare time because it’s only going to get busier from here on out. Marriage, children, careers, 401K, it’s all looming on the horizon and I need someplace to be able to vent, fangirl, and just be me. If I can’t do that on this blog then I don’t know what else is left. Therefore, when I don’t feel like blogging, I’m not going to push myself to post something. Besides, I’m pretty sure that you, the reader, can tell when something is forced and when the writer is truly passionate about the subject. So in the end it benefits both parties.

There are three reasons why I wasn’t posting as much as I used to…

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Summer

The fact of the matter is that I didn’t want to be on my computer more than I had to when the weather was so beautiful. For the first time in years I was living near the coast and had easy access to multiple beaches. I wanted to enjoy the season, period.

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Uncertain future

While my relationship status is a whole hell of a lot better than it was in say February, there were still issues that we weren’t talking about. I wanted so badly to move back in with him but he was hesitant to discuss it and this really had to be his idea. I made the mistake once of deciding to move in without taking into account his feelings/doubts. I wasn’t about to do it twice. So I spent the whole summer in limbo, not knowing where we stood. I didn’t know what to do about us, my job, or how to bring it up. Basically it was a whole lot of worrying and anxiety for months.
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Depressed

I’m going to really honest – I don’t feel like I have any close friends at the moment. My closest friends are drifting away simply because we live so far away and none of us are great at keeping in touch. It’s definitely something I’m trying to improve but it’s a work in progress. I’m decently close with my coworkers but I don’t get invited to anything one on one – it’s always a work group outing. I keep trying to tell myself that deep, meaningful friendships don’t happen overnight but it’s hard when you don’t feel like you have one to fall back on while you make more.
Additionally, my family is causing a lot of anger and frustration. Passive-agressiveness reigns king and no one knows how to choose their battles. Guilt, hypocrisy, and constant arguing are only some of the wonderful things that I experience once I get back to the house. I keep picking up shifts at work because I need the money AND it’s an excuse not to be around my family.

Yeah…
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Bottom line, there was so much going on emotionally and mentally that I just didn’t have the capacity to blog. Reading, specifically rereading some old favorites, has been the only thing keeping me sane. But the beau has intimated that he wants me to live with him again, I’m avoiding my family wherever possible, and my job allows transfers between locations so things are starting to look up. I want to talk to you guys and use this blog as an outlet for my passions again. And I feel like I’m finally in the head-space to do so.

Have a great day with an even better book! 

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8 thoughts on “Blogging Slumps, All The Cool Kids Are Doing It

  1. I know those crappy days :/ especially when there is a lot of arguments going on within a family which really shouldn’t be the case. I hope everything will get better :) Family is really one of the most important things in life

    • I agree that family is important but I’d rather have the family I choose, my friends. Just because you’re related by blood doesn’t mean that you have to enjoy their company or try to establish relationships because sometimes it’s just impossible. It’s been a difficult journey accepting that I can’t change my family into individuals whom I’d like to know or have them know me.

    • It felt like such a weight off my shoulders to write this post. So many bloggers I love are closing up shop because they bled their creativity dry posting as much as possible. Sometimes it’s a stream and other times it’s just a trickle and I’m okay with that now :)

  2. This is exactly how I’ve been feeling lately! I’m glad your doing what’s right for you! I’m currently working on that ;) Thanks for sharing!! It’s nice knowing someone else is going through the same things I am. I hope everything works out for you the way you want it to!! :)

  3. Don’t feel guilty for needing time away. It’s your blog and you do what you want!

    I hope things in your personal life continue to improve and become less stressful. And that reading (and at times, blogging) will continue to help keep you sane when everything else sucks :)

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